Chapter 4: Genevieve
GENEVIEVE
I regret this already. My first day in the office at Dad’s stone business is worse than I imagined. For weeks, maybe months, the guys walked in here to leave invoices in a haphazard pile on the desk in front of an empty chair. Mail was tossed in a tray without so much as looking at who it was from. There’s still a mug of sludge that used to be coffee sitting on top of the filing cabinet. Opened sugar packets the ants have long since scavenged are sitting in the trash can.
And Shane isn’t helping. While I sit at the computer trying to discern Mom’s file-naming system to track down some kind of record of paid and outstanding accounts, my second-oldest brother is down a TikTok hole on his phone.
“Hey, fuckhead,” I say, snapping my fingers. “There are like six invoices here with your name on them. Are these paid or still pending?”
He doesn’t bother raising his head from his screen. “How should I know?”
“Because they’re your jobsites.”
“That’s not my department.”
Shane doesn’t see me shake my hands in the air as I’m imagining throttling
him. Asshole.
“There are three emails here from Jerry about a patio for his restaurant. You need to get on the phone with him and set up an appointment to do a walk-through and give him an estimate.”
“I’ve got shit to do,” he says, barely muttering the words as his attention stays focused on the tiny glowing box in his hands. It’s like he’s five years old.
I launch a paper clip at him with a rubber band. Nails him right in the middle of his forehead.
“Shit, Gen. What the hell?”
That got his attention.
“This.” I push the invoices across the desk and write down Jerry’s phone number. “Since you’ve already got your phone out, make the call.”
Utterly disgusted with my tone, he sneers at me. “You realize you’re basically Dad’s secretary.”
Shane is sincerely testing my love for him and desire to let him live. I have four other brothers. Not like I’ll really miss one.
“You don’t get to boss me around,” he gripes.
“Dad made me office manager until he finds someone else.” I get up from the desk to put the papers in his hand and shove him out of the office. “So as far as you’re concerned, I am your god now. Get used to it.” Then I slam the door on him.
I knew this would happen. Growing up in a house with six kids, all of us were always jockeying for position. We all have an autonomy complex, everyone trying to exert their independence while getting shit on from the upper rungs of the age ladder. It’s worse now that I’m the twenty-two-year-old middle kid telling the big brothers what’s what. Still, Dad was right—this place is a wreck. If I don’t get it all sorted in a hurry, he’ll be broke in no time.
Later, after work, I meet up with my brother Billy for a drink at Ronda’s, a local dive for the retired swingers crowd that spends their days driving up and down Avalon Bay
in golf carts and trading keys in a fishbowl over a game of poker. The rising May temperatures in the Bay means the return of wall-to-wall tourists and rich pricks clogging the boardwalk, so the rest of us have to find more creative places to hang out.
As Billy smiles at the leathery-faced bartender for a beer—nobody in this town cards the locals—I order a coffee. It’s unseasonably sweltering outside, even at sunset, and my clothes are sticking to my skin like papier-mâché, but I can always drink a cup of hot, unleaded caffeine. It’s how you know you’re from the South.
“Saw you and Jay bringing in some boxes last night,” Billy says. “That the last of it?”
“Yeah, I’m leaving most of my stuff in storage back in Charleston. Doesn’t make much sense to haul my furniture down here just to move it all back up in a few months.”
“You’re still set on going back?”
I nod. “I’ll have to find a different place, though.”
My landlord was a total jerk about breaking my lease a couple months early, so I’ll still be paying him while I’m here living in my childhood bedroom. Leaving my job didn’t go much better. My boss at the real estate agency all but laughed at me when I mentioned taking a leave of absence. I hope Dad’s planning on paying me well. He might be a grieving widower, but I don’t work for free.
“So guess who walked into the hardware store the other day?” Billy says with a look that tells me to brace myself. “Deputy Dog-shit came in hassling me about the sidewalk sign. Something about town ordinances and blocking pedestrian traffic.”
My nails bite into the weathered bar top. Even after a year, the mention of Deputy Rusty Randall still coaxes a special kind of anger.
“That sign’s been there for, what,” Billy says, “twenty
years at least.”
As long as I can remember, definitely. It’s a staple of the sidewalk, our wooden A-frame sign with the cartoon handyman announcing,
YES, WE’RE OPEN!
and waving a pipe wrench. The other side features a chalkboard with the week’s sale or new products. When I was little and loved following Dad to work, he used to yell at me from inside that I better not be drawing on the sign. I’d hastily erase my artwork and begin transferring it to the concrete, doing my best to force traffic around my masterpieces and just about biting the ankles off tourists who stomped their Sperrys through my sidewalk gallery.
“The guy wouldn’t leave until I brought the sign inside,” Billy grumbles. “He stood there for fifteen minutes while I pretended to help some customers and haggled with him about his bullshit ordinance. I was about to call Dad to talk some sense into him, but he went for his cuffs like he was about to arrest me, so I said, screw it. I waited a few minutes after he left and then put it back out.”
“Asshole,” I mutter into my coffee. “You know he gets off on it.”
“I’m surprised he didn’t tail you into town. Half expected him to be sitting outside the house in the middle of the night.”
I wouldn’t have put it past him. About a year ago, Deputy Randall became my cautionary tale. That night was my rock bottom, the moment I realized I couldn’t go on living like I was. Drinking too much, partying every night, letting my demons get the best of me. I had to do something about it—get my life back—before it was too late. So I made a plan, and a couple months later, I packed up everything I needed and set off for Charleston. Billy was the only person I told about that night with Rusty. Even though he’s two years younger than me, he’s always been my closest confidant.
“I still think about her,” I tell my brother. The guilt churning in my gut at the thought of Kayla and her
children is still potent after all this time. I’d heard a while back she’d left Rusty and taken the kids. “I feel like I should find her. Apologize.”
Though the idea of facing her, and how she might react, is enough to send me into an anxiety spiral. It’s become a new feeling for me since that night. There was a time when nothing scared me. The stuff that left other people biting their nails rolled right off my shoulders. Now, I look back on my wilder days and cringe. Some of those days were not so long ago.
“Do what you want,” Billy says, taking a deep swig of his beer as if to wash the lingering topic out of his mouth. “But you have nothing to apologize for. The guy’s a jackass and a creep. He’s lucky we didn’t find him down a dark dirt road somewhere.”
I’d sworn Billy to secrecy; otherwise, he definitely would’ve run and told Dad or our brothers what had happened. I’m glad he kept it quiet. No sense in all of them winding up in prison for beating the pulp out of a cop. Then Randall would win.
“I’m going to run into him eventually,” I say, more to myself.
“Well, if you’ve got to skip town in a hurry, I still have about eighty bucks stashed in my old bed frame at Dad’s house.” Billy grins at me, which does go a long way to unwinding the knot in my chest. He’s good like that.
As we’re closing out the tab, I get a text from my best friend Heidi.
Heidi:
Bonfire on the beach tonight.
Me:
Where?
Heidi:
The usual.
Meaning Evan and Cooper’s house. The place is loaded with emotional landmines.
Me:
I don’t know if that’s a good idea.
Heidi:
Come on. A couple drinks then
you can bail.
Heidi:
Don’t make me come get you.
Heidi:
See you there.
Me:
Fine. Bitch.
I stifle a sigh, as my tired brain tries to work through yet another pitfall to consider. Settling back into town, I was excited to reconnect with old friends and spend more time with others, but trying to dodge Evan makes that more complicated. I can’t very well draw a line down the center of town. And no part of me wants the summer to devolve into tests of loyalty and calling dibs on our tight web of friends, ties crossing and overlapping. It isn’t fair to either of us. Because as much as I know nothing good comes from letting Evan back in, I have no intentions to hurt him. This is my punishment, not his.